Today I peaked. My interest was piqued by something I never thought I’d encounter. I investigated it, and I decided it wasn’t for me. It taught me to empower myself, to take the reins. To take control of my own destiny. I feel strong, even in the midst of being at a low point. At […]

Today’s your big day. A landmark of years, amounting of fears as you tick up another tally in your answer to the age old question: “how old are you?”  It’s not a big deal, though. You never did think birthdays mattered all that much.  Even still, you, I, at some point, we all worry:  Will […]

I can’t constantly ask questions, reaching out to an ether that won’t ever fruit into the fate that I dream to one day foster. I won’t hide who I am. I won’t be there only to stand to the side. I won’t ever be everything I never can be, for that just doesn’t make sense […]

we were close. closer. closing in on closing the distance. but then we closed off. closed our doors. got close to the end. then we closed our chapter. reopened it, closed our distance. and then reclosed it. became closer to ourselves. closer to the earth. closer to god, however close he she they it can […]

Riding fast, slowly tipping. Soon to spill as fumes spew out our headspace, filling this with a sinking, too-full feeling. Heavy.  Things topped over, tipped by the brim onto their underside. Center of gravity pulled down and away, exposing vulnerable extremities to the ether. Elements oxidized us, broke us down. It was bound to happen, […]

Definition: move rhythmically to music, typically following a set sequence of steps. Used in context: me gustaria bailar en este vida, porque cuando caminar todos los días, ¿que es el punto?  I want to dance, to swing, to relevé to say good day to the sun, even when it stays cuddled up between clouds.  I […]

The bane of our existence, the crux, the core of the gooey matter is that we’re all a bit consumed by the need to be something.  We want what we can’t have, have things we don’t want, and choose to consume and check every fiber of our everything to make sure we’re doing okay by […]

We are no longer, and I don’t want to be wanted by you. Even though my chest hurts my head is light my eyes are tired my heart is tired just typing this, I know this will end better if I let it languish now, that I’m better off being my own better half. If […]

Standing at the corner, waiting. Waiting for the bus to come sweep me away from this place, this same space, this fortress, cloud city solitude. Standing at the corner, watching homeless men skeptically out of the corner of my eye, because someone’s got to protect me when I’m feeling so vulnerable. Waiting at the corner, […]

I want, more than anything, to begin again.  To quit you.  I want, more than anything, for this fire to stop burning, to truly believe my self-proclamation that yes, I’m good. I’m great. I’m fine. I’m finding my way away from your fire. Hearing from you hurts. It reignites those insecurities that I gradually gathered the […]